Tuesday, September 06, 2011 @ 1:04:00 PM
Cause I Have No Words
Every morning, my alarm rings and I forcefully open my eyes, and the same thought floods my head. “I hate my life.”
I drag my lifeless body from my comfort zone and prepare for a day of cursing and swearing. I have knowingly become an angry person. The anger inside of me is growing each day. Outbursts after outbursts. After all the angst, I fall into despair, about how helpless I am to change my life’s direction.
Everyone says, continue looking, someday, something good will befall you.
But when will this someday and something come. I am exhausted, of looking, of waiting. I have tried, but to no avail.
I have thought about succumbing to my pathetic life, to be just contented with what I have. Deep down, I know I want more, much more.
Courage and support, of which I have none.
I have never been so lost before. Lost, angry and in despair.
I drag my lifeless body from my comfort zone and prepare for a day of cursing and swearing. I have knowingly become an angry person. The anger inside of me is growing each day. Outbursts after outbursts. After all the angst, I fall into despair, about how helpless I am to change my life’s direction.
Everyone says, continue looking, someday, something good will befall you.
But when will this someday and something come. I am exhausted, of looking, of waiting. I have tried, but to no avail.
I have thought about succumbing to my pathetic life, to be just contented with what I have. Deep down, I know I want more, much more.
Courage and support, of which I have none.
I have never been so lost before. Lost, angry and in despair.
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up all the failiures all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go,
let it go
let it go
let it go
let it go
Labels: Angerism, blueism, Youtube
Friday, March 04, 2011 @ 12:49:00 AM
Tools
She lifted the tool and touched its cool shiny surface, careful not to touch the edge. Sharp, she thought. She sat there hesitating if she should the deed should be done. It scared her. She had never done this before. Will it hurt?
Slowly, she raised it to her skin. The coolness of the tool brushed against her. One stroke, two. She was getting addicted. It felt so good. The apprehension from before dissipating. After cleaning the ground, she kept the tool in a safe place. Again, she thought.
Thursday, December 23, 2010 @ 1:10:00 PM
I Feel the Kpop Fever Returning
Labels: Youtube
Thursday, May 06, 2010 @ 8:57:00 PM
你是我胸口永远的痛
Labels: Youtube
Monday, April 19, 2010 @ 5:07:00 PM
Pre-examination Fever
14 weeks of 5.5 hours break in school on Thursdays is finally over. This means exams are coming. This Friday actually. My body celebrated this joyous occasion by giving me fever on Thursday and actually hit 39.3°C on Friday night! Luckily I have a man slave to care for my sickly body.
"You give me fever when you kiss me
Fever when you hold me tight
Fever in the morning
Fever all through the night"
- Fever by Elvis Presley
On a sad note, I am once again suffering from pre-examination-blues. On a even sadder note, it's my second last semester. This means I will have to step into the cruel working society this year and work my sickly body to waste. But this also means no more holes in thy wallet, I hope.
Saturday, September 19, 2009 @ 8:00:00 PM
怪胎
没有的东西，
想成有。
失望；
只能怪自己。
Labels: Youtube
Thursday, September 17, 2009 @ 12:59:00 AM
HAHAHAHAHA!!!
OMG! LMAO!
Labels: Just For Laughs, Youtube
Thursday, September 10, 2009 @ 1:18:00 AM
Ultimate Boredom
So much so that I have been watching makeup tutorials on youtube. It's not like I will do it because I don't have many colors. Essay writing drives me nuts, and when I thought the this is the worst it could get, it just worsened. What a wonderful world~
Just to share, this is so far my favorite.
If you are as bored as me, you can look through her tutorials. It's pretty impressive.
I would want to try red lips too, but I think I would look more like a vampire than retro.
Fly me to the havens where two hearts beat as one;
Spread your wings and fly me across the blue seas;
Soar into the horizons where the sky and ocean unite;
Fly away, fly away, fly away.
Labels: Youtube
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